[because I hate myself today]
[dumb, stupid, selfish, unwanted]

Nobody knows it, but I've got a secret smile....and I don't use it anymore.

"Could i be loved, and be loved?"

[É porque eu to sem capacidade de escrever, e todos sabem, músicas sempre ajudam. Resolvi sair citando músicas, mas nem vou dizer os nomes e os artistas, dá trabalho. Ando me odiando ultimamente, hoje o stress subiu à cabeça, já dei patada em todo mundo. Sabe o que é, dava até pra chorar, a gente procura, procura, pensa que acha, mas sempre ta errada. Não é possível. Não eu não to apaixonada, pra quem queira saber. Mas tem o mesmo grau de complicação, sim. Textos pobres, mente cheia, mas mal organizada, nem confusa, mal organizada mesmo, é aí que não consigo escrever. Também não posso escrever, não tenho provas, ainda nao descobri se é isso mesmo ou não. Bom foi o "Meu momento giz", melhor post de todos, o mais sincero, mais verdadeiro, o mais perfeito que eu podia ter escrito. Só tem um defeito, o destinatário não leu.]

"I kinda always knew....but i should have thought of that before we kissed"

Saudade.
Teimosia.
Besteira.
?Será?
[Isso, diferencie, são quatro coisas diferentes]

"I'm a hazard to myself."

"Hey now, hey now Don't dream, it's over."

"Everybody's free to feel good." Except me. Maybe.

"Hold up hold on don't be scared You'll never change what's been and gone May your smile. Shine on. Don't be scared Your destiny may keep you warm. "

"Why do the good girls always want the bad boys?"

"Tell Me Love Isn’t True It’s Just Something That We Do Tell Me Everything I’m Not But Please Don’t Tell Me To Stop "

"You're the only one who Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams You're the only one who Knows exactly what I mean "

"I hate the world today You´re so good to me I know but I can´t change tried to tell you but you look at me like maybe I´m an angelunderneath innocent and sweet Yesterday I cried You must have been relieved to see the softer side I can understand how you´d be so confused I don´t envy you I´m a little bit of everything all rolled into one I´m a bitch, I´m a lover I´m a child, I´m a mother I´m a sinner, I´m a saint I do not feel ashamed I´m your hell, I´m your dream I´m nothing in between You know you wouldn´t want it any other way So take me as I am This may mean you´ll have to be a stronger man Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous and I´m going to extremes tomorrow I will change and today won´t mean a thing I´m a bitch, I´m a lover I´m a child, I´m a mother I´m a sinner, I´m a saint I do not feel ashamed I´m your hell, I´m your dream I´m nothing in between You know you wouldn´t want it any other way Just when you think you´ve got me figured out the season´s already changing I think it´s cool you do what you do and don´t try to save me I´m a bitch, I´m a lover I´m a child, I´m a mother I´m a sinner, I´m a saint I do not feel ashamed I´m your hell, I´m your dream I´m nothing in between You know you wouldn´t want it any other way I´m a bitch, I´m a tease I´m a goddess on my knees when you hurt, when you suffer I´m your angel undercover I´ve been numbed, I´m revived can´t say I´m not alive You know I wouldn´t want it any other way."

"You were all the things I thought of you And I thought we could be "

Ah... e quem leu tudo, ótimo, foram pedaços de músicas que disseram o que eu queria dizer.

[blargh!]